Thursday, February 27, 2014

Unanswered questions

Why did you leave? Why did you give up on us? I thought we had something special. Something we prayed for. Something we waited for all our lives.

How could you do this to me? Am I not enough for you? I thought you loved me. My strenghts, my weaknesses, my fragility? I don't deserve all this pain. I deserve better than this. I was supposed to give you everything I have. Everything I am. How could you not wait for me?

Who's kissing you now? Is there anyone in this damn world who can love you as much as I do? Can he love you with all his heart, accept everything you are? Your weaknesses, your fragility? I can. I still can.

When am I going to wake up and realize I have to live my life again? When am I going to accept that even if you changed your mind, things will never be the same?

Where will our paths cross again? Will I ever see you again? I hope not soon though. I can't bear to see you and not feel pain. Anger. Resentment. I hate you.

You see, I have a lot of unanswered questions in my heart. A lot more than you can imagine. Honestly, I don't want you to answer any of them. It would break my heart even more.

Only time can tell if I'll ever love again as much as I loved you. If I can ever learn to trust again.

Despite all my unanswered questions. I still wish you well. Please be well.

Monday, February 24, 2014

Gravity - Sara Bareilles

GRAVITY
Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

[CHORUS:]
Set me free,
Leave me be.
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

Oh, you loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone.

[CHORUS]

I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need here on the ground.

But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.

You're keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.